My mom got better. Remission. Marcus held her in the driveway when we got the news, and I saw his shoulders shake for the first time.
"You're not helpless," he told me one night, after she'd fallen asleep on the couch. "Helpless is a choice. And you were never taught to choose it." my stepdaddy trained me well
I think that's the only kind of training that matters. My mom got better
When I got home, Marcus was in the garage, sanding a canoe he was building. I told him what happened. He didn't say "good job" or "I'm proud of you." He just nodded and handed me a sanding block. "You're not helpless," he told me one night,
I wanted to fall apart. Instead, I made a list. Meals for the week. Medication schedule. Ride coordination for her chemo. Insurance calls. Marcus showed me how to start a spreadsheet, how to talk to doctors without crying, how to sit in silence when there was nothing to say.
"Thanks," I said. "For training me."
I hugged him. For real. No sarcasm, no teenage attitude. Just a hug.